You may or may not read it, it's okiies.
I just will feel better after I had say all I wanted to.
" You have changed!
You really have changed to a person whom I don't know at all.
I thought that you will change back to your own self after so many things had happened.
To my suprise, you didn't.
Perhaps, you had already make up your mind and choose not to turn back.
I really have no idea what is the reasons for all your doings.
It will not help, but will make everything even worst.
Sometimes, I feels that your tone is abit rough, kind of showing me attitude.
I asked you, you told me never.
I just don't get used to the way you talk, what you expect me to do?
You had always wanted me to gain back my trust for you.
But I know I just can't do it.
Do you know what is the reason?
Let me tell you then.
You are always hanging around with girls, and joking around with them.
And how you expect me to trust you?
Sometimes, you really make me have that feeling that you like another girl.
Is not that I don't trust my friends, I do trust them honestly.
Is those actions you did that I just can't put my whole heart to trust you.
Do you understand how I feel?
Perhaps, you don't.As time passes, the guilt in my heart really make me feel bad.
I know it's me who broke you both up.
Now, I really can't do anything.
When I see her, I don't have the guts to face her and tends to avoid her in everyway.
What I am doing now is just to apologise for everything.
It may not help, but I really can't do anything.
I really feel bad.
Will you understand?
Those hurts in my heart had not been heal yet.
I am just finding someone to care, concern and love me.
But I just can't find any.
Nevermind bahs.
I just hope you will concentrate on your studies and strike for the best.
And hopefully, you won't turn from bad to worst.
Take care. "
SHEneedsHIM
You may or may not read it, it's okiies.
I just will feel better after I had say all I wanted to.
" You have changed!
You really have changed to a person whom I don't know at all.
I thought that you will change back to your own self after so many things had happened.
To my suprise, you didn't.
Perhaps, you had already make up your mind and choose not to turn back.
I really have no idea what is the reasons for all your doings.
It will not help, but will make everything even worst.
Sometimes, I feels that your tone is abit rough, kind of showing me attitude.
I asked you, you told me never.
I just don't get used to the way you talk, what you expect me to do?
You had always wanted me to gain back my trust for you.
But I know I just can't do it.
Do you know what is the reason?
Let me tell you then.
You are always hanging around with girls, and joking around with them.
And how you expect me to trust you?
Sometimes, you really make me have that feeling that you like another girl.
Is not that I don't trust my friends, I do trust them honestly.
Is those actions you did that I just can't put my whole heart to trust you.
Do you understand how I feel?
Perhaps, you don't.
As time passes, the guilt in my heart really make me feel bad.
I know it's me who broke you both up.
Now, I really can't do anything.
When I see her, I don't have the guts to face her and tends to avoid her in everyway.
What I am doing now is just to apologise for everything.
It may not help, but I really can't do anything.
I really feel bad.
Will you understand?
Those hurts in my heart had not been heal yet.
I am just finding someone to care, concern and love me.
But I just can't find any.
Nevermind bahs.
I just hope you will concentrate on your studies and strike for the best.
And hopefully, you won't turn from bad to worst.
Take care. "
SHEneedsHIM
Yesterday, Wednesday marks the end of my June Holidays.
Bumped into one group of school friends, going Sentosa too.=)
The six of us all went Sentosa at late morning.
Here are the six little monkey:
;; Me ;;
;; MingJie ;;
;; YanLing ;;
;; JiLiang ;;
;; WeiLiang kor kor ;;
;; Alvin kor kor ;;
And the story begins.
I have to apologise to the other four, me and MJ was late.
Then you guys waited for damn long. Sorry.
We all took the 'Yellow Line' bus all the way in to Palawan Beach.
Trying to figure which location is suitable for us.
Must see the 'feng shui' arhs..=)
Cross the suspended bridge. FUN!
Then start to play water lorrhs.
Splashing all around, like children.
Played Volley Ball?=)
OMG!
WeiiLiiang kor kor injured his leg!
Bleed like siiaos siaL.
Brought him to the Medic.
Hopefully, his injured leg is better by now lerrhs.
Me also kena wounds siaL.
Tio sun burn also! =) Everywhere also red red derhs.
After that, we all went to Siloso Beach rent bicycles.
Three monkeys go at one time. Other three rest. LOLS!
Around six plus, then start moving off lerrhs lorrhs.
Well, we really spend quite some time on planning what to do.
Hopefully, we all will have even more fun next session bahs.=)
But anyway, nice to meet the two guys!=)
Going NS soon, must take care worhs.
Keep in touch!=)
SHEneedsHIM
Should be staying at home rotting again lerrhs.
Cause of SOMEONE lorrhs. PANG SEH!=)
Nevermind larrhs. It's okiies derrhs.=)
Let's recall back what happened yesterday.
First, went Orchard with that lil girl.
Saw 'Peck' and friends.=)
Then, went to eat lunch.
OMG!
Can anybody believe I nearly ate a big, fat green worm?!
It's just cooked in my delicious soup!
Nevermind. All thanks to 'HER'. Joking.=)
Went to take neoprints.
Stupid service! What kind of service is that?! Attitude lorrhs.
Window shopping was what happened.
Saw that JUNJIE and friends.
Wahs piiangs ehs!
Act dao siaL.
Saw us like strangers like that.
We all were once in the same school right.=)
Nevermind.
Went home liiaos.
Tiring day - according to that girl.
Pathetic hors? Just few hours nias!
But anyway, thanks alot for that afternoon!=]
SHEneedsHIM
Everything is in a big bloody mess now.
What I thought might be just a dream bahs.
I thought I can try and trust him fully as a friend.
But what happen now?
Well, you guys may say that it is just a testimonial in friendster.
But will anyone really understand how I feel now?
Honestly speaking, I don't mind about testimonial writing, but is the content in it.
Those maybe their past, I agreed.
If he still remembered all those past with her, then what is the point?
Yes, I am really over-sensitive this time.
Before he wrote that testimonial to her, did he thought of my feelings at all?
Maybe it's really time for us to go separate ways lerrhs.
We can't get along well after so many times of trying.
We are like from totally two different world.
I know he still have feelings for her derrhs.
Why must he denied it, can't he just face it and try to patch with her?
Why must I get hurt again and again?
When will all these hurt stop coming against me?
Last year, I had it once.
This year, again.
Is it an annual event for me?
Will I have to face all these forever?
Siigh.
I am hurt,
I am disappointed,
I am lost,
I am heart-broken.
I am just crying my heart out.
Sorry for all I've caused.
SHEneedsHIM
SHEneedsHIM
Balloon Hats Festival ended.
Everything turned out very well.=)
It was like damn damn fun lorrhs.
Our playings doesn't sound perfect, but I believe everyone enjoyed ourself.
Team-worked and cooperation are needed!
Luckily that Sunday wasn't that hot like the rehearsal day.
Hahas!
Nevermiind.
It's just a very short post bahs..=)
Update next time lerrhs.
See ya!
SHEneedsHIM
Holidays finally come.
It's time to relax abit liiaos lerrhs.
But too bad, still have to return school for band practices.
Preparing for this coming Sunday's Balloon Hats Festival at Sentosa.
Though, the training and preparations are tough, I believe our effort put in will have really great fun derhs.
Just all the best bahs, hopefully, everything will turn out well and everyone will enjoy it!
Heyhey!
MJ just returned from Malaysia.
Heard she saw Shuai Ges.
Omg! Heart melt.
LOLS.
Anyway, thanks for the present you bought back wors.
I love it ya!
Hopefully, we will be able to go out after next week.
As you know, my band takes up alot of my time ya.
Sorry. Erms.
Back to something about me lerrhs.
Did I change?
Did I seems to be very hostile?
I really don't know what is happening to me and things around me.
Perharps I may need more time to settle down bahs.
I will really appreciate if you will be able to understand how I feel bahs.
Well, that's all lerrhs bahs.
Will update after I come back for the Balloon Hats Festival!
SHEneedsHIM
