Haiishs.. Dere ish no longer a second time ferhs us lerhs.. We r totally gone.. In da past, we quarrel n argue, still we will be togather after awhile.. But now? Ish no longer da same lerhs.. We quarrel n dere ish no end ferhs it.. Haiishs.. He used hurtful words in da conversation.. He said tad I used on hiim.. I reallie neber.. Wen I knoe him, I admit I still haben forget moi ex, but wen we were together, I hab oreadi forget hiim cos of hiis presence.. I felt lurfe n care from hiim.. I feel tad he left miie silently.. He told miie he will neber leave miie but wad happen now? He dunch even tried tu save back.. He deleted miie from hiis blog's member.. Haiishs.. Ish euu who made miie believe in lurfe, but wad happen now? I reallie surrendered towards lurfe.. It's hurts sho much.. Well, I do agreed wiib dis sentence: Eu brought it upon urself, eu believed in somethini tad hab neber happened.. I was too foolish tu believe in hiim tad he wanted a break up, which he neber wan.. Haiishs.. I was da one whu end everithini.. I was da one! And I shall pay back ferh everithini.. Haiishs.. Why mus I assumed everithini? Why mus I tot tad everithini was rite? Haiishs.. I din threw hiim awae now, I din.. And I din wan it tu end.. Haiishs.. It mayb too late ferh everithini lerhs.. His feelin ferhs his ex might hab gain back lerhs.. Haiishs.. I cun stop it either.. I'm jus waitin ferhs tad dae he ish willin tu return.. I reallie dunch wan tu end dis lurfe story.. But if he doesn't den I jus wish he n whuever gerl a happie endin.. If he reallie doesn't return, I truly wan tu thanks hiim wad he hab given miie sho far.. Thanks alots.. I hope he still rmb wad I told him last niite, study hard.. Haiishs..
After he left miie, moii life ish full of black n white.. Moi healed heart ish shattered into pieces once again..
Moi eyes are filled wiib tears.. It's floodin now.. I'm reallie hurt by wad euu said n wad euu did.. Euu left miie.. Euu left miie.. Haiishs.. I jus wan euu tu rmb, I still lurfe euu loads even we are apart.. I hope eu wun doubt moi lurfe.. Reallie.. I swear.. I'm alwae dere waitin ferh euu.. Haiishs.. Takkaire..
Moi eyes are filled wiib tears.. It's floodin now.. I'm reallie hurt by wad euu said n wad euu did.. Euu left miie.. Euu left miie.. Haiishs.. I jus wan euu tu rmb, I still lurfe euu loads even we are apart.. I hope eu wun doubt moi lurfe.. Reallie.. I swear.. I'm alwae dere waitin ferh euu.. Haiishs.. Takkaire..
Our lurfe story ended on thirtydecember, fridae 2005 at 08:54:14 PM.. Haiishs..
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Haiishs..
Everithini hab changed completely..
Reallie..
It's sho scary..
I dunch dare tu open moi eyes and face it..
Finallie, I knoes wad he wan..
- b - r - e - a - k - u - p -
He broke hiis promise tad he made..
It was all a lie..
Haiishs..
He left miie silently wiib out anithini happened.
I'm reallie lost..
I hab tu let go reluctantly..
Moii life ish filled wiib black n white..
Moi eyes are filled wiib tears..
Moii healed heart ish shattered into pieces once again..
Haiishs..
I Lurfe You.
Haiishs..
SHEneedsHIM
I JUST FOUND OUT SOMETHING FROM SOMEONE JUST NOW. THERE IS A BLOODY, IDIOT BITCH WHO WENT ROUND SAYIN PEOPLE SUCKS! THIS IS HOW EVIL CAN SHE BE. NOBODY DOES ANYTHING BAD TO HER, AND DON'T KNOW WHAT WRONG TO HER! I SUPPOSED SHE DON'T KNOW THE DEFINATION OF 'DIE'. YOU ARE NOTHING BETTER THAN OTHERS! YOU DON'T SEEM TO BE ANY BETTER THAN OTHERS! NEITHER DO YOU ROCKS!
I just hope you would kindly stop your noneness and concentrate on your studies.
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Heys! I'm back tu blog sum craps liiaos lerhs.. Actuallie, I hab nth tu blog derhs, den [sumone] tags on moii tagboard, askiin miie why miie neber blog.. Hahas! Well, jus returned home from grandparents' house.. Long tiime neber go dere liiaos.. Almost two months liiaos, cos workin marhs.. Den jus now go lorhs.. Damn bored! Miie kept lockin moiself in da room.. Hees.. Kept usin hp msgin hiim.. Hehes.. Mani thini happens in da msg siaL.. *wiinkk- Tokiin abt hiim.. It's reminds miie of sth.. He gort headache jus now! Lols.. I jus cun understand hiim.. He hab headache continously ferhs sho mani daes, why cun he inform hiis parents n hab a check up..? Ish he goiin tu jus heck care da pain he hab everidae marhs..? Haiishs.. Moi heart hurts, weneva he hab a headache.. Haiishs.. Nehh miindd.. Dunch tok abt tad lerhs.. Well, he ish now at dunch knoe wad event.. Beiin abandoned by hiim.. Haiishs.. Nehh miindd.. Hahas!
Let miie recol wad happened ytd.. Well.. We wen tu sum place tu do sum thini.. Secret.. Onlie miie n hiim knoe.. Hahas.. Den liddat lorhs.. Nth much tu tok abt ytd..
[` [Darlinx], moii lurfe ferhs euu hab deepen liiaos lerhs.. Hmm.. Though, moi heart hab nort fully healed, I believe as time passes it will b healed silently derhs.. Well.. Skool reopenin veh soon liiaos.. Hope tu see euu soon wors! Takkaire of urself.. Hmm.. Here moii update hors.. Euu beta thanks miie.. I spend sho long typin dis chunk of craps.. Euu beta appreciate n tag on miie hors! Kekes. Jokin larhs.. Cyas! Lurfe euu loads.. Muackies! `]
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Haiishs..
I reallie hate tad feelin..
Am I reallie a spoiler tu da both of dem..?
I shldn't hab stepped in from da start..
Neither did I wan tu step out n lose hiim now..
Haiishs..
Wad ken I do now..?I'm reallie afraid tu face da reality, and yet nobodi was dere tu encourage miie..
I knoe da reality will happen either sooner or lter derhs..
I broke down, cos I'm reallie scared..
Haiishs..
Will his heart n feelin changed as each daes passed by..?
Will he leaves miie silently..?
I'm reallie afraid tu knoe da truth, dear..
If euu still lurfe her, I reallie hope euu will tel miie frankly..
I might or might nort react..
Haiishs..
After one niite of tiinkin..
I decided tu b wiib euu till da truth ish out..
Till da reality happen..
Euu means alot tu miie.. Reallie..
Haiishs..
I'm afraid, scared, sad n hurt..
Haiishs..
Moii heart hab break silently..
The broken heart will neber b healed..
Haiishs..
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Hmm.. Miie neber cum blog quite a number of daes liiaos.. Cos veh lazi marhs.. Hees.. Tiime flies reallie fast, Christmas cum liiaos lerhs.. Goiin tu end in few hours tiime.. The year of 2006 will b cumin up next liiaos.. After two full month of holidaes, skool reopenin in a week tiime..
Well, din reallie celebrate ferhs Christmas bahs.. Wen out wiib parents lorhs.. Den now damn bored.. Nth tu do.. Stayed at home use com.. Hees.. Waitin ferhs hiis col..
Reallie veh veh long tiime neber see hiim liiaos lerhs.. Arnd two tu three weeks liiaos.. Miss hiim damn much siaL.. Well, meetiin next week.. Lookin forwards ferhs tad dae tu cum!!! Lols..
Wishin everibodi a veh happie christmas.. Lurfe hiim loads! Muackies!
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Well.. Wen tu Malaysia, JB, wiib moii parents iin da mornin.. It's rather borin wiib out hiim arnd, cun enjoy moiself much.. Miss hiim sho much wors.. Ever since he returned from da twevle daes camp, we din hab da chance tu mit up til todae.. Haiishs.. Sad lehs.. I reallie hope tad dere ish reallie one dae we will b able tu mit up wors.. Haiishs.. He gortt high fever and sore throat siaL.. Tok tu hiim on da fone jus now hors, hiis voice will make miie cry out siaL.. Seem lyk he sufferin.. Moii heart hurts alots.. I jus cun do anithini but jus hope tad he wil receover asps.. He's goiin movie shootiin tomolo in skool.. Haiishs.. He's reallie weak n sick now, how ken he go tomolo, somemore still overniite derhs! Haiishs.. Does he knoe how worried m I..? I jus hope if he's reallie nort feelin well tomolo mornin, he wun go ferhs da shootin.. Haiishs.. I'm reallie worried!!! I cun do anithini, dear.. Euu mus takkaire.. Dunch tired urself outt.. Lurfe euu alwae ya.. Miss euu alots! Muackies!
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Haiishs.. Miie slept at one plus last niite.. Dunch knoe why cun close moii eyes and hab a rest.. Moii tears kept flowin profusely.. Surprisely, he msg miie dis mornin at eiight plus.. Actuallie, still slpin derhs, den his msg wake miie up.. Arghs! Todae still mus do Math! Anione ken help mie? Miie reallie dunch understand a single thini! Totally blanked!
Haiishs.. I knew tad wad I said last niite reallie hurts hiim alot.. Haiishs.. I reallie din meant it.. I jus dunch knoe wad happened tu miie last niite.. It's maybe cos of lackin trust again bahs.. I knoe moi sorries wun help animore lerhs.. But no matter wad, I will jus aplogise here.. Sorries, dear.. I jus wen tu hiim blog.. Haiishs.. I finallie understand sumthini.. I'm jus a burden tu hiim from da start.. I'm jus nth tu hiim.. Jus nth! Haiishs.. Perharps, out of hiis two ex.. I'm da worst one bahs.. I jus cun gib hiim wad he actuallie wanted.. I dunch understand hiim, and I hab neber try tu understand hiim! Why cun Igib moiself a chance tu understand hiim? I hab tried tu deceive moiself tad I'm nort a burden tu hiim, I hab tried tu believe moiself tad I ken giib hiim happiness n wad he longs tu wan.. But guess wad? I jus cun fulfill ani one of dem.. I jus sho useless! Yarhs.. I caused his headache and everithini.. I caused it! I made him tiink too much till he cun concentrate on his con-current tasks.. It's all moi fault! Haiishs.. It's miie whu caused hiim tu gave on on himself.. Miie! How I feels now ish jus lyk a sharp knife beiin stabbed in moi heart and it starts tu bleed profusely.. Reallie.. Haiishs.. Pure, clear droplets of tears start tu linger down moi cheeks again..
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Haiishs.. Feels sho sad now wors.. Dere ish no one dere ferhs miie.. No even euu.. Haiishs.. Wen tu hiis fwenster.. Wad did I saw? Tu moii surprise, I saw a heart which ish made up of mani colourful little stars.. Whu gave hiim tad? Where did he gort from? Haiishs.. Lotsa questions starts tu pop up moii miind.. Haiishs.. If I were tu knoe da terrible truth of da heart.. It's gone ferhs us.. I reallie hate tu sae tad, but I reallie cun accept da truth.. Sorries..
Haiishs.. Goin ferhs Malaysia on Wednesdae early mornin liiaos lerhs.. One whole dae kennot contact euu.. As wad euu said early.. Now euu r back from da twelve daes camp, it's sho hard ferhs us tu b back togather, and now I'm goiin abroad again.. Haiishs.. Sorries, dear.. Hmm.. I jus hope we will b able tu treasure the time we hab tomolo.. Sorries.. Lurfe euu loads.. Takkaire!
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Tiime finallie hab cum lerhs.. He hab return back last niite.. Sho sad siaL.. Wen he return, I habin da niite tourin.. Reallie miss hiim sho much.. Sho happie tu see hiis msg last niite.. Tears almost dropped down at tad moment siaL.. I managed tu control abit.. Cos veh paisehs arhs.. Well.. Overall, da niite tour was quite fun n enjoyabe bahs.. We gets tu knoe each other beta n we oso gets tu knoe da impt of unity n togatherness.. Kena leg cramp dis mornin wen reach home.. Damn pain lorhs.. Den oso mosquito bites all over moi hand.. Oso din eat much, gort gastric oso.. I shall norts go in details liiaos lerhs.. If eu wanna knoe den go ahead n ask miie wors..
Now, he hab safely return liiaos.. He's back by moii side again.. I jus hope he wun leave miie again.. Kennot survive wiib out hiim.. Dear.. Dunch ever leave miie liiaos.. I lurfe eu alots!!! Takkaire.. Muackies!
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Yeahs! Finallie aii hab a new blogskin liiaos lerhs.. Miie lurfe it sho much wors.. Oso mus remember tu liink n tag miie lehs.. Hehes.. Hmm.. Dis mornin wen ferhs band practice as usual.. It's from mornin ten tu arnd four-thirty.. Miie, YanBiing, ShiiHuan, TiiaoLii, PeiiXiia, Precelia n Berlyn wen North Point ferhs lunch den cum band late siaL.. Late ferhs thirty minutes den kena sixty pumpings.. Back tu band room oso gets scoldin from instructors.. Haiishs.. Sobbies.. Den we hab combined sectional lorhs.. Arnd four, Mrs Ho briefs us on da Fridae's niite tour lorhs.. Veh excited abt da niite tour thini siaL.. It's da whole niite till da next mornin wors.. It seem tu b veh fun.. Lols.. After band practice, wen North Point buys thini wiib TiiaoLii.. Back home after tad.. Abit tired ya.. Tomolo hab tu work again.. Luckily, it's mornin shift arhs.. Hehes.. Moi last week of work lerhs.. Skool wanna reopen lerhs.. Dunch hab sho much tym tu work liiaos.. Sundae miie hands up da resign letter, kena scoldin from manager wors.. Cos miie works less than two months den resign.. Haiishs..
Wahhs! Sho happie lehs.. He ish cumin back on Fridae lerhs.. Left three more daes!!! Haiishs.. Sho sad siaL.. He returns on da Fridae niite, den I hab da niite tour.. Well.. I jus wan hiim tu return by moii side.. Miie reallie miss hiim alots.. We wasn't togather ferh twelve daes.. Ken sae tad lotsa thini happen durin these daes he wasn't arnd.. Hmm.. Den wish tad tym ken flies even faster.. Will b lookin forwards ferhs tad time tu cum.. Lurfe hiim loads! Takkaire..
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Well..~ It hab been sum time I din go online n din blog liiaos lerhs.. Too bz liiaos lerhs.. Almost tired out siaL.. Heng arhs.. Todae almost landed in hospital arhs.. Haiishs.. Neber takes breakfast den wen tu work, den oso neber takes lunch.. Gort gastric pain n headache.. Damn pain siaL.. Fainted at work place.. Luckily, those work-mates n manager dere veh gud, help mie out.. After feels beta den gets back tu work lorhs.. Hehes..
Haiishs.. Four daes had passed.. Onlie four daes! Another eiight daes tu go.. Haiishs.. Miss hiim alots siaL.. First time siaL.. Haiishs.. Jus wish time ken flies faster.. Lols.. Hmm.. Nth much liiaos.. End here lerhs..
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Haiishs.. Todae, Mondae, the date of fifth december, the year of two thousand five, he left miie at da time of 09:24:24 AM ferhs a trip tu Brunei ferhs OBBS.. Dis ish da veh first time tad moi lurfe one left miie ferhs such a long time.. While tokiin on da fone wiib hiim last niite, I reallie dunch knoe wad tu sae even though he iish leavin dis mornin.. I'm totally speechless last niite.. Moi heart starts tu hurt n bleed frm tad moment.. I reallie couldn't close moi eyes tu slp last niite.. I cun control moi tears.. I jus cun imagine how m I goiin tu suffer those daes wiib out hiim by moi side.. Haiishs.. Dear.. I'm reallie sorries tu disappoint eu.. I reallie cun go tu airport n send eu off.. Sorries..` Wad I'm hopin ish tad eu will return safely after da twelve daes.. `Mayb after eu wen ferhs dis camp, I'll b able tu treasure eu more n lurfe eu even even even more..` If I were tu hab da choice tu choose, I reallie dunch wan eu tu go ferhs dis camp.. Cos.. I knoe it will b a torturin one, eu might nort b able tu take e torture.. I knoe eu r physically weak, eu cun do heavy exercises.. And finally, I will reallie miss eu alots.. Haiishs.. I'm wonderin, why m I sayin all these thini ferhs, wen eu hab oreadi left miie? Haiishs.. Tears startin tu roll down moi cheeks once again.. Haiish.. I'll b waitin ferhs da daes eu goin tu return.. Dere's twelve daes more.. Haiish.. Takkaire dear.. I lurfe eu..```
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Last niite, tok on da fone wiib hiim ferh some time.. As wad he said a small chat rocked a big event ya.. Tokin abt sum veh pirvate thini.. Den suddenly, I accidentaly came across da two word 'break up'.. I dunch even tad he's tad sensitive tu tad two words.. He broke down siaL.. Shocked lehs.. Dear.. Sorries lehs.. I reallie din mean tu use tad two words derhs lehs.. Sorries..~
Well.. Wen back skool ferh band practice jus now in e afternoon.. Todae veh sway siaL.. Instructor randomly picked on us n giib us a small notes test, kena col miie siaL.. I oso dunch knoe wad's da answer.. Den kenna two hundred pumpin, cos one question dunch knoe den one hundred.. Luckily, Cherina helped miie siaL.. If norts I'll hab tu pay back moi two hundred pumpin in one dae lerhs.. Sure die one.. Hahas.. All thks tu her wors..
After band practice den go home lorhs.. Eat dinner den watch tv lorhs.. Dunch knoe why moi nail dropped out siaL.. Damn pain arhs..! I'm wonderin how tu wear shoes tomolo arhs.. Tokin abt tomolo.. Yarhs.. Tomolo might b goiin ferh an injection wiib Mel.. Will it b painful? Lols.. Abit scared lehs.. Nehh miind.. It's tomolo event.. Lols..
He wen ferh a movie wib his parents now.. Den left mie alone lorhs.. Sae wanna msg mie den oso neva derhs.. Haiish.. Nehh miind..~ Arghs! Left wiib two daes!!! Haiish.. Sho sad siaL.. How? Haiish..
End here liiaos.. Lurfe ya!
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Finally todae hab cum.. I waited ferhs sho long lerhs.. We finally managed tu make it siaL.. One mth liiaos.. Jus hope it will last bahs..
Kaos ehs.. Left wiib three more daes onlie.. Haiishs! Twelve daes! He will leave mie ferhs twelve daes! Arghs! Wad ish gonna happen tu miie? I gonna miss hiim alots.. Haiishs! Ken he dunch go marhs? Haiish.. Tad time he left miie ferh three daes, I oreadi kennot take it lerhs.. Now, ish four times the daes.. Haiishs.. How?!
Dear. Eu mus takkaire of urself dere hors.. Haiish.. Gotto miss euu lots! I lurfe eu lots!!! Nobodi ken replaced eu ya!
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