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Well, jus return frm grandparents' house.. Nth much tu do..
Somehow, hab a great disappointment! Intended tu go swimmin wib MingJie, Melanie n him de.. One by one cun make it at e last minute.. MingJie came home quite late todae, kena nagged by dad, den kennot go out tomolo lerhs.. Melanie last minutes sth happened, den oso kennot go.. He lehs.. Hmm.. He din promised mie anithini cos he's norts sure if ken go out anorts mahs.. Hais~ Everitime oso kennot de.. Last minute back out de..~! So fed up sias~!
Hais.. Tomolo will b damn bored lerhs.. Hais~
Sobbies~
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Jus woke up.. Hais~ Nth tu do.. Lter goin tu moi grandparents' house again.. He's goin tu fwens's church.. Shld b a dae lyk ytd lerhs bahs.. Hais~ Well, hab tu bear wib it lerhs.. I do miss him.. Lols.. I lurfe him too..~
*_- ai lurfe eu -_*
lalalalala~
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Wake up early.. All alone.. Haiis.. He was slpin cos he slp quite late last nites.. Well.. Now, I jus hope tad he will get back tu normal n we ken get back wad we used tu b.. I dunch wanna lose eu animore.. Now, we mus realle promised tu hab e determination n overcum everi single obsticles.. I hope tad eva will one party leaves another party.. I lurfe eu!
Hais~ Waitin fer him tu wake up..
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Todae was e last dae of skool lerhs.. Time flies reallie, reallie fast ya.. It's jus left wib arnd 2 mths n year 2005 ish goin tu end lerhs! Goin tu Sec 3 next year lerhs.. *upper secondary* Lols.. Well.. Received result slip todae.. Shld I sae I was shocked.. I din knoe if tad's gud anorts.. Nvm bahs.. No matter wad, I will hab tu work hard next year lerhs.. Dere will b lotsa studies's stress next year lerhs.. Lotsa thini tu study.. Hais~ Nvm.. Dunch worries tad much.. Wad ish cumin ish November n December holidae.. Two full mths! Ken enjoy untill siaos~! Lols.. Luckily, he managed tu clear his Sec 3 ya.. He's goin Sec 4 next year lerhs~!
Hais~ Unhappy thini starts tu happen after skool lerhs.. Tot of goin out tu celebrate wib Melaine, Chelsia, MingJie n him de.. Tu moi surprised, he cun make it.. He hab his NCC's thini tu do.. Dunch knoe wad camp fire de.. Wadeva larhs~ Mie n Mel stayed back awhile tu accompany him cos his thini haben starts.. After while, Mel wen home take money den mit mie again.. Mie n him was in skool chattin.. Suddenly, his fwens came sayin sth weird.. I was so hurt tad I shouted at him.. I walked awae wib silence.. I was so shocked tad he brought along his bag wib him n leave mie all alone.. Wad a disappointment~! Tried tu col him, oso din picked up e fone.. Felt so worried fer him.. Wen back skool wib Mel.. Try tu tok tu him but e reaction showed mie tad he was guilty fer wad he done.. Hais~ After sittin down, sortin out thini togather, we somehow manage tu save back everithini.. Thks god ya..~! But the problem ish, are we able tu get back e past? Are we? Hais.. I reallie din wan tu lose him..~
" Boi, as wad I said jus now, wad we r lack ish determination.. If we managed tu get e determination, I'm sure everithini will turn out fine de.. Okies.. Dunch tink too much lerhs.. Cheer up.. Smile.. I'm reallie sorries tad I din trust eu at first, instead I wen tu trust wad ur fwens said.. Sorries.. I know I caused everithini.. Sorries.. I'll trust eu in e future lerhs~ Well.. I hope tad we will neva b apart animore.. Pls dunch treat mie lyk jus now lerhs.. Hurtful de.. Eu dunch believe, I treat eu liddat next time.. Eu try how izzit.. Todae, ish e one n last time lerhs.. Okies.. Sorries.. i lurfe eu~! "
Hais~ Unhappy thini starts tu happen after skool lerhs.. Tot of goin out tu celebrate wib Melaine, Chelsia, MingJie n him de.. Tu moi surprised, he cun make it.. He hab his NCC's thini tu do.. Dunch knoe wad camp fire de.. Wadeva larhs~ Mie n Mel stayed back awhile tu accompany him cos his thini haben starts.. After while, Mel wen home take money den mit mie again.. Mie n him was in skool chattin.. Suddenly, his fwens came sayin sth weird.. I was so hurt tad I shouted at him.. I walked awae wib silence.. I was so shocked tad he brought along his bag wib him n leave mie all alone.. Wad a disappointment~! Tried tu col him, oso din picked up e fone.. Felt so worried fer him.. Wen back skool wib Mel.. Try tu tok tu him but e reaction showed mie tad he was guilty fer wad he done.. Hais~ After sittin down, sortin out thini togather, we somehow manage tu save back everithini.. Thks god ya..~! But the problem ish, are we able tu get back e past? Are we? Hais.. I reallie din wan tu lose him..~
" Boi, as wad I said jus now, wad we r lack ish determination.. If we managed tu get e determination, I'm sure everithini will turn out fine de.. Okies.. Dunch tink too much lerhs.. Cheer up.. Smile.. I'm reallie sorries tad I din trust eu at first, instead I wen tu trust wad ur fwens said.. Sorries.. I know I caused everithini.. Sorries.. I'll trust eu in e future lerhs~ Well.. I hope tad we will neva b apart animore.. Pls dunch treat mie lyk jus now lerhs.. Hurtful de.. Eu dunch believe, I treat eu liddat next time.. Eu try how izzit.. Todae, ish e one n last time lerhs.. Okies.. Sorries.. i lurfe eu~! "
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Haiis~!! Dere's reallie lotsa obstacles which both of us had tu face n overcome it de.. We mus reallie work togather, in order tu overcome dem.. Well.. I've tu let eu dis.. If euu reallie kennot take e pressure or stress, do let mie knoe.. We will try tu solve everi single problems before we preceed tu another.. Okies..?
Let's our past b e past.. It's jus a past lerhs.. It will neva eva happened again.. Forget all! We shall "restart" ourself wib e presence of each others.. No matter wad happen, I'll b by ur side.. Dunch worries..
I Lurfe Eu!!!
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After tad, mie n him walked tu North Point.. Chattin awae.. Lols.. Chelsia wen Melanie's house.. Lols.. Shop arnd NorthPoint awhile, den return back home..
Hmm.. I've sth tu said tu him.. Listen up, boii..
" I'm sorries.. I ken feel tad moi ex ish a veh big threat tu eu.. I wanna tu make thini clear tu eu.. Mie n him ish totally over lerhs.. It's impossible lerhs! Wad I wan now, ish eu.. Okies..? Eu dunch anihow tink animore lerhs.. Ken mahs..? I hope eu wun sae wad eu said last nites again.. I reallie hope eu wun act as wad eu said.. Cos it's reallie hurtful tu mie.. Promised? I jus lurfe eu.. Rmb.. I lurfe eu! "
I ken feel tad his ex still lurfe him.. She's reallie a big threat tu mie.. It causes mie tu hab e guilt tu lurfe him.. Wad shld I do..? I'm reallie afraid tu lurfe him cos of her.. Hais.. Ken he understand? Haiis.. Endin lerhs.. Sobbies.. Tears rollin down moii cheeks..
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Whaos~ I finalli make it lerhs.. I manage tu maintain in Express fer next year~ So happz sias!
Well.. Wen Northpoint again wib him n Melanie.. Quite fun.. Manage tu clarify certain impt thini wib him.. Lols.. Moi mind ish finally eased.. I'm norts confussed animore.. Lols..
*Are we possible?*
Tis toopid qn kept appearin in moi mind~! Nvm.. Let everithini b natural~
Aniwae, reallie sorries abt jus now.. Actualli, I'm norts angry wib eu de.. I jus wanna c ur reaction.. Sorries.. Hope eu dunch mind n dunch eva take it tu ur heart hors.. Sorries~ Hmm.. Nth much tu blog liaos lerhs~
I Lurfe Eu! Takairre~
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I jus wanna let eu knoe tad.. Eu will alwae b in moi heart from now on.. Eu may tink eu r nots e perfect guy I'm lookin fer, but I ken let eu knoe tad, eu r e guy! Eu r moi perfect guy.. Okies..? Well, I'll b waitin fer eu.. Reallie.. Waitin n waitin.. Lols.. I lurfe eu ya.. Rmb..! Lols..
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Hmm.. I wen out wib him fer e past few daes.. It's jus onlie e two of us.. It's reallie fun.. I reallie enjoy bein wib him.. Haiis.. Izzit 'first sight lurfe'? I dunch tink so.. Haiis.. I din dare tu let him knoe anithini abt it.. I din knoe how wun he react.. Reallie.. Well.. I ken feel tad he reallie care fer mie alot.. Hais.. Wad shld I do next? Haiis.. I'm reallie, reallie confused! I'm afraid tu let him knoe abt moi past.. Moi past was reallie terrible..~ Haiis... ... I reallie hope tad after readin tis, he wun avoid mie.. (cos sum guys will)
Well.. Wen Northpoint wib him again.. Saw quite a few fwens.. Dey misunderstood us.. Lols.. Walk round n round dere.. Nth do.. Lols.. Hmm.. Nth sae liaos..
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To Desmond onlie:
Let mie tel eu tis fer once n fer all.. We r oreadi gone lerhs.. Now, I've e freedom tu do anithini I wan! It's none of ur business! Wad I do? Where I go? Whu I stead wib? Whu I hang out wib? All these thini eu dunch nid tu knoe! Eu jus mind ur own thini! Pls dunch go arnd tellin ppl tu spy on mie! And dunch go arnd tu ask fer ani boi col 'Jason' number lerhs! It's nots ur business.. If I am wib him, I will tel eu! Dunch nid tu go arnd ask de! Thks fer ur cooperation..
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Whaos~! Ytd wen out tu Bugis wib moi cousin, her boifwens n sumone else.. Though, startin of e trip ish veh borin.. But lter leavin moi cousin n her boifwens was reallie, reallie fun!
Haiis.. Ytd, 'sumone' kept answerin 'dunch knoe' tu mie.. I was sumhow angry wib 'sumone'.. I tink 'sumone' was damn scared tad I was angry wib 'sumone'.. Hehehes.. 'Sumone' msg mie usin hp.. Askin mie wad happen n apologise tu mie..! Lols.. After tad, wen tu search fer 'sumone' waterbottle.. Lols.. It's fun.. If got ani chance, go out again ya? Lols..
Aniwae, dis jus a short msg tu eu [sumone]~
Heys, dunch worries too much larhs.. I'm nots angry wib eu animore liaos.. Dunch ever said those thini eu msg ytd in e shoppin mall hors.. Wib out ur presence, I'll b veh bored liaos lerhs.. Okies? Mayb I'm too 'xiao qi' liaos lerhs~ Okies..? Stay cheeful.. Smile more~ Takaire~
Well, it was reallie a veh fun dae..~ Thks fer accompany mie..
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Whaos~! It's a fresh start of moii life frm now on lerhs~ Well, I'm jus too tired tu blog last nites. Slept at 12 plus last nites. Hmm.. Ytd, wen fer a hair trim wib MiinggJiie, Melaniie n Jason. Ken sae quite fun bahs. Full of laughters~
*Jason* -> Jus knoe him recently. Nice guy. Friendly guy. Easy-goin guy. Carin guy. And many, many more. He's jus nearly tu be a perfect guy! Lols~
Well, MiingJiie wen fer rebondin ytd. Very nice-lookin wors. Look much more pretty n sweet. It's took us abt 3 hours plus tu c her rebond her hair. 3 of us were jus sittin dere waitin. *bored*
Wen home wib Jason. So nice of him tu send mie tu interchange, den wait bus wib mie. Aniwae, he's takin bus too~ Thks Jason. Jason! Beta help mie add a testi n comment fer moii blog hors. If nots I killed eu arhs! Lols..
Dere's reallie reallie a big joke. While walkin arnd 4 hundred plus wib Jason. He was somehow mentionin abt '15/10/1991' tu mie. I was shocked, cun tink wad happen on tad dae.. He hide e thini frm mie fer sometime. Suddenly, said 'Happz Belated Birthdae!' I was lyk goin 'huh?!'. Hahas.. He tot tad was moii birthdae.. For goddness sake, it's nots~! Lols..
Hees.. Nth tu blog liaos lerhs. It's jus a veh fun dae! Blog other time bahs..
Waitin n waitin..
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Hais.. Why must he fall in love in another girl? Do he know that I'm waiting for him? I thought that he had already lost feeling for that girl lerhs.. But he had not.. I call him just now, I thought he will talk, but he say no mood.. I thought was cause of exams but it was not.. It was cause of the girl.. Hais.. Does he know how hurt am I? Can he ever understand my feelings? I've really lost confidence n trust on this relationship lerhs.. I've really!
I have suffered enough lerhs.. Once again, why must i hold on to something which don't belong to me anymore? Why? I'm confussed.. Should I give up? Hais..
Wozhendefangbuxia!!!
All our effort put into this relationship had gone down to the drain.. Should I sae he is nots a human!!! He is nots! Hais.. I have reallie lost feelings fer eu lerhs..! I will make sure the feelin will neva gain back..!
Jason, thks fer bein by moi side wen i nid someone.. I reallie appreciate it.. Reallie thks..
Haiis.. I gonna gib up for once n for all!!
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Whoas~! Today, stayed back with Melanie to see the Sec 4E/5NA Farewell thing.. So touching sias.. Tears rolled down my checks half way through.. Hais.. They are leaving soon lerhs.. Haiis..
Suddenly, Mdm Ani come to said to me that:" Jingwen, saw your HERO on the stage mahs? Purposely shake Desmond's hand to let you jealous de.." Hais.. Wahs.. Totally shocked! How ken she knoe everything about my past??? Haiis.. She even can tel that I still love him.. Hais.. I was somehow avoiding those questions Mdm Ani was asking me.. Hais.. Why must she bring up the matter?! Hais.. Nvm.. It's the past ya..
Well.. Saw hiim.. Think he had a hair cut recently?
This morning, come school.. Chelsia mentioned about he, Asri n a girl in NorthPoint yesterday around 4 plus.. Hais.. Totally shocked again! Hais.. Nvm.. I must relax.. Hais..
Haiis.. Just saw all my exam script today! Out of 8 subjects, failed four! Hais.. Mr Tan spoke to me.. Asking me to be prepared that be dropped tu NA.. Haiis.. Why??? Haiis.. Was he there for me? Last year, he was by my side.. This year? Hais.. Totally disappointed.. Broke down after school.. Haiis..
What can I do now? I lose my love one, friends n even my studies!! Hais.. Terrible.. Really hope he would call me up.. Haiis.. It would not happen anymore like last year lerhs..! Sobies..
"I Lurfe Eu"
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So, so lonely today..
Initially, in the morning, me and Melanie planning to go Lot 1 shop shop.. Out of the sudden, Chelsia said she wanted to join us along, but she only can go out at around two plus.. Too bad, I can't go out that late and the whole plan was gone! Hahas.. All thanks to Chelsia! Lols.. Joking..
He also went out with his class friend to collect class t-shirts at Beach Road.. I was suspecting him but did not say a single word.. I was thinking that even if I treat him as a friend, trust must be also present ya..
Last night, chatting with him in MSN, telling him that I'm planning to become a Christian.. He was telling me that he is 'Anti-Christian'.. Surprised? In fact I was surprised thought I did heard him saying that before.. I'm wondering at that time: I do believe that there are of course some of his friends are Christian, and why is he telling me he's anti-christian.. Something came to my mind last night, but I told myself I shouldn't think that much bahs.. As he made things very very clear that it's impossible lerhs.. Nvm.. Life must still go on for me without him de.. Right..?
Well, another year is going to end lerhs.. The day he is present in school is going to end soon.. Can't get to see him anymore in school.. Sad.. Just left with around 2 weeks more and I'm unable to see him lerhs.. I must really treasure these 2 weeks in school before it's too late.. Hais.. Maybe I must give up lerhs.. He might have the heart to give up that but not me bahs.. I can still say that I still love him wholeheartedly.. Does he know that? How can he know? Hais.. I just hope he can sense that and will realise one day.. I shall really wait for that particular to happen bahs.. *patience*
" You must really treasure the 2 more weeks to study. You can only help yourself now lerhs.. As wad i sae before, you are just left with the last hurdle lerhs.. Put your effort to strive for the best boy.. Don't disappoint me.. I love you.. "
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[ Rmb I Lurfe You ]
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To him if he had e chance to view my blog n c..~
" Although, i knoe tad eu had found e gal eu lurfe lerhs, but eu cun stop me from lurvin eu too.. Since eu had found ur gal, den i shall reallie wish eu gud luck wid tad gal.. I knoe tad eu reallie lurfe e gal alot n alot.. Hais.. No matter wad, I will b dere fer eu wen eu nid me one dae.. *I meant it* I hope tad I'm still at least a fwens tu eu, if norts den nvm lerhs.. We din contact each other fer arnd 2 weeks lerhs.. I reallie miss those dae we were ********.. Ken everything backtrack? Hais.. I jus hope eu still ken rmb wad ish todae date? [fifteenoctober] Hais.. Fer your studies, jus study hard fer e last hurdle.. Dunch give up.. Gud luck.. I'm sendin my best wishes fer eu! Take care!"
" Sorries.. I've reallie reallie made a very big lie tu eu.. I knoe eu may norts trust mie lerhs.. Sorries.. Actually, I do norts hab ani stead.. I made tad lie cause, I tot tad once I tel eu tad, my feelin fer eu wil drop n I ken forget eu, in fact, it neva.. Hais.. I dunch knoe if eu still hab e ring anots, if eu still hab, ken eu gib mie? Pls? I beg eu.. I knoe we r gone n tad's y I wan tu keep it den eu throw it awae.. Our past means alot tu me.. Hais.. Sorries fer e lie I've made.. I still lurfe eu deeply, I hope eu knoe tad. "
" I luRfe Eu "
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Hmm.. Exams reallie cumin near lerhs.. Stress arhs! Well.. Recently, had sum quarrels wid moi fwens.. Tried tu tok tu em, dey ignored.. Haiis.. Nvm bahs.. I reallie don feel gud fer tad.. Sorries tu e four of euu.. Hope tu get back soon.. Sad sad..
Ytd, wen tu c his results.. Hmm.. Still okies bahs..His chinese reallie made a great improvement frm e past.. Gud.. Continue tu work hard n euu will do it one dae.. Neva gib up.. 23 daes left fer euu! Okies? Well.. Ken reallie feel tad he ish avoidin mie everi now n den.. Why mus he avoid mie? I tried tu control myself but nots msgin him n not colin him fer 5 daes.. I did it.. But I'm reallie sufferin alot.. Last nites, I took out those 'precious letter' tad he wrote tu mie in e past.. It was all a big big lie! All those lie will neva eva happen, why mus euu promised mie in e letter? Hurt deeply.. Broke down e whole nites.. Haiis.. I'm reallie sufferin.. Do euu knoe? Haiis..
Did I made e rite choice? I'm reallie confused! CONFUSED! Haiis.. Got tu leave e world soon! It's reallie soon! Haiis.. Takairre.. TEARS rollin down.. Haiis.. ilu..*Muack*
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Goin tu mad liiaos lerhs! Haiis.. I lurfe You..
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Whoas! It's a new month again.. 1st of October lerhs.. End-Of-Year Examinations ish jus arnd e corner lerhs.. Mus buck up, kennot slack animore liiaos.. Sitin fer English Paper 1 on Mondae in e hall.. Haiis.. So sway! Sit wiid HER side by side! Fed up sias! Aniwae, nvm, we r in different class.. Lols..
Haiis.. Time reallie flies veh fast.. Blink ur eye den another dae liiaos lerhs.. Dae after dae.. Hopin tad thini fer us will changed, but it's dunch.. It gets worst n worst everidae.. Accordin tu moii sixth sense, he had found his gal lerhs.. Although I dunch knoe whu, jus wish em eva lastin bahs.. It's time tu let go.. No point holdin on tu sth which dunch belong tu miie n no results achieved.. Saw hiim kept turnin his head tu Sharen's side on Fridae's noon.. Dunch knoe r dey related anots.. Haiis.. And found tad dere's a new key chain on hiis bag.. He hung it dere.. So obvious! Why mus all dis thini happenin? Wht cun everithini jus backtrack?! Haiis..
Dis ish a short msg fer hiim:
Although euu might c mie studyin wid YaoDe in skool fer e whole week, we r reallie not related at all.. It's jus fwens studyin togather.. It's jus lyk euu n ur fwens.. Pls dunch misunderstood.. I ken swear I dunch lyk hiim.. Reallie dunch! Haiis.. Ur O lvl ish reallie veh near lerhs.. It's less than 30 daes.. Mus reallie strive fer gud result.. Gud luck!
I Lurfe Onlie You!
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