.. Haiish.. Wad actuallie happened between miie n hiim.. He starts tu treat mie veh cold, it seem tad he hab found another gerl.. Reallie.. He neber reply moi msg lerhs.. I reallie feels tad he hab lost interest in miie lerhs.. He din ask mie much nowadaes.. His attitude towards miie oso changed alots.. He wasn't e guy I knoe earlier lerhs.. He's kinda rude.. Haiish.. I jus hab a feelin tad dis time round, he will leave mie veh soon lerhs.. Izzit cos of moi work tad leads tu dis? Izzit I neglect hiim too much after moi work starts? Izzit moi character changed completely tad he cun accept it? Haiish.. Ken anione tel miie? I knoe tad both of our character did changed.. Will he reallie leave miie veh soon? I dunch wan it tu happen! I din feel ani security at all..! Arghs! Haiish.. Jus lyk todae, wen we wen tu back of KFC, dunch knoe wad happen, his face suddenly turn black.. Even Melanie ken c tad too.. And ytd.. He jus totally changed! I reallie cun believe tad he wun tok tu mie in tad tone.. And those hurtful sentences n words.. I reallie jus cun believe it! I jus hope tad he will speak out hiis miind.. I reallie wan tu knoe everithini.. Yarhs, in e past, I din wan tu listen ur explaination but now ish jus totally different lerhs.. I wanna knoe everithini tad ish on ur miind.. And I wan the truth.. Haiish.. Moi tears start tu roll down moi cheeks.. Wad makes us turn out tu b liidat?! Haiish.. Moi heart totally shattered..
1.) Will he b able tu make it ferh tomolo evenin after moi work?
2.) Or will he b enjoyin his movie wiib his fwens?
Haiish.. The god will decide ferh us lerhs.. I'm reallie speechless.. Sob sob..
Arghs! I hates moiself alots! I hate tu b borned dis wae! Why cun I control moi attitude n temper??? Why cun I jus bear wiib hiim? Why mus I raise moi voice at him??? Why mus I hung hiis fone??? Why?! Haiish.. Did he tot of how I feels? And did I tot of how he feels too? Haiish.. Wad shld I do??? Haiish..~!!!
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Yeahs! Wen tu PS's KFC do holidae homeworks wiib hiim. Den go find Melanie at KFC. She workin marhs. Quite fun wors. We were sitted at one side of e KFC. He was doin his graph works. Mie jus study moi band works. At first, the three of us wen tu e back of e KFC dere. Den met Jonathan dere. We tok n tok n tok. He was all alone siaL. His face suddenly turn black siaL. I dunch even knoe wad happen tu hiim. Haiishs. Nehh miind. While doiin our works, a number of times moi face n ears turn red siaL. Wad happen? Hahas! Den arnd five plus, we go home norhs.
Initially, he sae wanna go mit his fwens den go watch movie derhs. Den dunch knoe why neva go liiaos lerhs. Den tomolo watch lorhs. Hmm. Tokin abt tomolo. Finally, one mth liiaos! I waited ferh sho long siaL. Hahas. How I wish he wil b able tu cum out after moi work tomolo. Celebrate one mth. Hahas. Mayb I tiink too much liiaos lerhs. If he happen tu c dis, den I'll jus hope tu c his reply ferh dis requst bahs. Hehes.
Tot tad we could chat online derhs. Den suddenly he hab tu go out hab dinner. Haiishs. Alone siaL. Neh miind. Jus hope tad he will b able tu make it tomolo lorhs. Pray hard siaL! Lols. Lurfe ya lots!
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Well, wakes up quite early dis mornin, cos gort band practice marhs.. Made moi trip tu Yishun Interchange wiib TiiaoLii.. So sway siaL.. On da bus, met Zoe Tay! Hahas.. Gort a feelin tad she knoe tad we band people dunch lyk her.. Aniwae, it's her problem.. A veh long band practice.. Gort one hour lunch.. The eight of us wen tu four hundred plus dere hab lunch.. Came back skool late.. While waitin ferh YanBing, we all wen tu seven-eleven.. One siiaos auntie brought her dog in wiib out ani thini attached tu it.. The dog wen runnin abt da whole shop.. Few of us were runnin awae frm da dog.. Den moi hand injured.. Bleedin siaL.. Sobbies..
Haiish.. I've been colin him since da mornin lerhs.. He din even pick up da fone, nort even a msg was replied.. At first, tot tad he was still slpin, den he din notice.. Arnd 4 plus, I still kept colin, still dere was no respond.. Gettin abit fed up liiaos lerhs.. Intended tu go find him after moi band ends wiib Melanie.. Den mit him at interchange wiib his brother.. I was sumhow angry siaL.. He answered mie wiib sentence n ignored mie after tad.. Moi heart totally shattered! Reach his house dere, col him up.. He said those veh veh hurtful sentences tu mie..~ Broke down silently.. Haiish.. Do he knoe how hurtful was tad..? Haiish.. Luckily, we managed tu save back everithini.. Finally, dere's peace lerhs..
Dear.. I'm reallie sorries tu leave eu again n again.. I'm oso sorries tad I din believe ur words.. Sorries..~ It seem tad it's all moi fault.. Sorries, dear.. Dunch angry lerhs okies?
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Yeahs!!! Finally moi dear ish back frm camp lerhs.. Reallie glad tad he col miie up.. It's oso glad tu hear his voice.. I'm jus so glad!!! Dear, I lurfe eu!
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Well.. Ytd wen tu work again.. Long hours n tirin dae.. Kena quite a numbers scoldin frm Manager.. Damn fierce siaL.. Tremblin wiib fear.. Let c, recol why I gets scoldin..
First, chattin awae wiib moi fwens durin bz hours, den gets caught.. Haiish..
Second time was.. Hmm.. Yarhs.. Wen ferh dinner ferh too long..
Third, moi careless mistakes made.. Haiish..
Sway siaL.. Gets all three scoldin at one go after work.. Shouted at mie siaL.. Moi face turn red siaL.. Damn paisehs siaL..
Hmm.. Wen tu Pula Ubin in da early mornin.. Go dere ride bicycle ferh few hours.. Hurt moi ankle siaL.. Bleedin.. Lols.. Mosquito bites all over moi neck n hand.. Haiish.. Itchy..
Haiish.. Why time flies so slow.. Everidae I'm lookin forwards ferh da dae he return from camp.. But, it still seem tu hab a veh long wae tu go wors.. He left miie on Fridae's evenin.. Till now still haben return.. Will he b returnin todae or tomolo? Haiish.. Does he knoe tad I reallie miss hiim alots.. I reallie regrets tad I din cherish those time spendin wiib hiim.. Wen will he b back? Haiish..
Miss hiim everi minutes n seconds.. Haiish~
Dear.. Dunch eva leave mie ferh so long lerhs ken marhs..? Haiis.. It's reallie sufferin ferhs mie.. As wad eu sae before. I reallie cun live a second wib out eu.. Haiish.. Help! I nid eu back!
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Wahs! Veh long tiime no blog liiaos lerhs wors.. Miie no tiime sias.. Everi niite oso almost mid-niite den reach home, cos go work wiib fwens marhs.. So, now got lotsa thini tu sae lerhs.. Well, let's starts wiib moi work bahs.. Hmm.. Jus started workin on Wednesdae onlie.. Long hours sias.. Both managers dere veh wad larhs.. Abit den buay song, den lyk mad dog liidat derhs.. Environments dere.. Norts bad bahs.. Workin mates dere oso veh friendly n carin.. In time tu cum, ken joke arnd wiib dem sias.. It's fun but veh tirin.. Standin ferh da whole few hours.. Leg muscles goin tu tear lerhs! Tearin soon! Arghs~!
Haiis.. Let's stop at tad workin thini ferh awhile.. It's jus reminds mie of sth lerhs.. Haiis.. I made a veh big mistake frm da start.. I shldn't hab take up da job wiib out tiinkin of moi relationship wiib hiim.. I knoe tad I will sure neglect hiim alot derhs.. Haiis.. He told mie tad he dunch mind abt miie takin up tad job frm da start.. But.. Now, he minds lerhs.. He minds cos of moi lateness ferh hiis msg n moi condition of workin at dere.. And I oso knoe tad he will minds if I were tu neglect hiim alots.. I even gets moiself injured durin workin as in cut moi hand.. Haiis.. He's worried!
After few daes of workin, I sat down tu reflect on moiself jus now.. Yes! I did neglect hiim alot as compared tu e past.. He was all alone.. Haiis.. And I oso noticed tad I played n joked arnd wiib guys at dere.. I knoe I shldn't do tad.. Haiis.. Will he minds ferh tad? As wad he said, it's gud tu interact wiib da opposite sex, but did I wen over-board? Did I tiink twice tad I'm wiib hiim? Haiis.. Before everi actions I do, did I tiink of da consequences? I ken sae tad I neva.. Haiis.. I jus hope he wun misunderstood anithini, cos I jus lurfe onlie hiim..
Haiis.. Wad shld I do next? Shld I continue tu take up dis job? I'm reallie confused!
Haiis.. Moi darlin wen ferh his camp lerhs.. Will b awae ferh three daes.. I gonna miss hiim lots! We din hab e chance tu tok tu hiim nicely before he left.. Haiis.. I reallie miss his voice n everithini.. Haiis.. How I wish he's back frm camp now.. Haiis..
" Dear.. I reallie miss eu alots.. Ken eu cum back now? Haiis.. I might nort b takin up da job liiaos lerhs.. I knoe I will neglect eu alots.. Dunch listen tu wad moi workin mates sae ken? Dey jus jokin derhs.. I dunch lurfe anione else, except ferh eu.. Nobodi ken eva replaced eu derhs.. Reallie.. I'm sorries ferh moi past daes attitude n temper.. I'm sorries tad eu hab tu bear wiib mie.. I jus hope eu dunch mind.. Okies? Wen eu return frm ur camp, return mie a col.. Okies.. I lurfe onlie eu~ Onlie eu~ Takkaire, moi darlin. "
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Yeahs! Yesterdae, wen out wiib TiiaoLii.. Knoe her sho long lerhs.. First tiime go out wiib her siaL.. Well, she's fun-lurvin.. Tok alot.. Veh noisy siaL.. Hahas.. Jus hope she wun read diis.. Hmm.. Wen NorthPoiint derhs Long John eat.. Den walk all da wae tu Safra.. Nth tu do.. Den walk tu six hundred plus dere.. Hahas.. Wen tu hiis block.. Two siaos zarbors hangin arnd hiis corridoor dere.. Hahas! Makiin a fool out of ourself.. Paisehs siaL.. Hahas.. Shall nort sae wad we did.. Jus da three of us knoe lerhs! Hahas.. Both of us jus spend haf of da dae liddat~
It's tiime lerhs.. Den walk thru Yishun Park den back tu skool.. Skool bus sent us tu da Singapore Conference Hall.. Fer da toopid NIE Symphonic Band Concert.. Wahs lau ehs! Damn siians siaL.. I tiink those pieces dey played sounded more lyk funeral music den ani other music siaL.. LOLS! Almost fallin asleep.. Hahas.. Thru out da 2 hours, was lyk msgin hiim.. Thks ferh keepin mie company ya! Lurfe eu lots! Makin sho much noise on da bus, as if da whole bus was ours derhs.. Hahas! It's oreadi arnd eight plus wen we reached skool lerhs.. Den hang out wib other band member.. Hmm.. Got miie, TiiaoLii, YannBiingg, ShiiHuan, ZiiJiie, ZiiFengg, JunRongg, Kaven n KokHoongg.. Five guys n four gerls! Hahahas! Wen tu Causewae dere hab dinner.. Den wen tu arcade awhile.. Less den haf an hour, miie n TiiaoLii left first.. Hehes.. Reached home arnd 10 plus.. Veh fun bahs! Wen ferh a bath n col moi darlin up! Hahas.. Sorries lehs.. Sumhow neglected eu ferh da whole dae lerhs.. Sorries! Well.. Nth much lerhs.. Aii lurfe moi darlin!!!
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Haiishh.. Finally, I agreed wiib wad he said ealier lerhs.. 'The end ish near.' It's reallie, reallie near.. It's veh scary.. He starts tu avoid miie everi now n den lerhs..! He starts tu lost hiis patient ferhs miie lerhs..! Haiish.. Shld I step out now? He wen out ferh dunch knoe wad event, he din even wan tu let mie knoe.. Haiish.. I msg hiim tad I will leave.. Haiish.. Ish dis da rite or rather da best choice? Will I hab ani regrets after dis decision? Haiish.. Moi tears start tu roll down moi cheeks.. Moi heart hurts.. Does he knoe? How I wish he was dere ferh mie tu cry on.. Why mus he changed completely? Why all guys r liddat? I din wan tu step out derhs.. I hate leavin hiim.. But he forced miie tu do tad..! I jus hope tad he will patch back wib hiis ex, and b happz alwae.. I jus wish both of dem overlastin lurfe.. If eu were tu c dis, I'm jus sorries tu hurt eu again n again.. I jus hope eu ken gib mie e chance tu gib mie take back moi words.. I lurfe eu lots! If nort, den neh mind bahs.. I knoe eu r sufferin.. Moi heart totally shattered after e last msg eu sent miie.. Totally shattered! Totally hurt!
Moi msg ferh eu:
Haiish.. After wad hab happened jus now, ish dis reallie da end? I dunch wish but lookin at da wae eu treats mie, it reallie hurts deeply iin moi heart.. If time ken reallie backtrack between mie n eu, I would hab treasured eu n da effort we put in fer those time.. Dere's nth I ken do now but jus tu wait ferh tad dae eu would willin tu let mie take back moi words, allowin mie tu b by ur side again.. Those precious moments we hab together kept flashin across moi mind.. I ask moiself a relatively question.. Am I able tu treasure eu again if time ken backtrack? The answer ish Yes. I will reallie treasured eu dis time round.. I will.. But will eu allow mie tu take back moi words? Haiish.. Silently, I dropped tears ferh eu, but does eu knoe marhs..? If dere ish sth tad I wish tu do now, I tiink it should be commitin sucide bahs.. I hab lost moi power of moi words.. Darkness ish where I belongs and beiing isolated oso plays da part of darkness.. Haiis.. If eu were reallie tu allow mie tu take back moi words, I will promise eu change ferh da better.. Ken eu trust mie? I wun b hab those veh childish n inmatured mindset lerhs.. I tot tad eu will alwae play along wib moi childishness, but I was rong.. Cos of small lil issue, I tends tu lose moi temper n attitude.. I'm sorries.. I knoe tad if I continue tu behave iin tad manner, I will reallie lost everithini derhs.. Haiish.. Sob sob.. After so mani thini happen, moi feelin ferh eu hab nort changed.. I still lurfe eu as before.. Shall we..? Haiis.. The hole in moi heart will neva eva be patched, unless, dere's one dae eu will return by moi side.. I will b waitin ferh tad dae tu cum..~ I lurfe eu..~
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Haiish! After these few daes, I feels tad I dunchh belongs tu euu, and of cos euu dunchh belongs tu miie, as iin nort related tu eu.. I reallie diin feel ani lurfe, care n concern frm eu at all.. Eu neglected miie alots.. I feels tad I wasn't tad impt tu eu as compared tu da past lerhs.. The wae of treatin miie changed each dae passed.. After I received 'herr' msg last niite, I ken sense tad 'she' still lurfe n cares ferh eu alots.. I knoe everithini.. But since 'she' still lurfe eu, wen I confronted 'herr' tad time, why mus 'she' lied tu miie frm da start? If 'she' were tu tel miie da truth, da three of us wun ended iin diis situation lerhs.. Haiish.. I knoe tad eu dunchh knoe how I feels, but no matter wad, I will neva wan eu tu understand anithini.. Haiish.. Well, I've seen ur blog earlier, I knoe tad eu r sufferin n tryin tu escape frm everithini.. Yarhs.. Wad eu sae was rite, it's reallie time ferh miie tu wake up n reflects in moiself n moi actions lerhs.. In da past, I was jus livin in a world which ish full of dreams n fairytales.. I was too self-centered.. I tot those mistakes which I made in da previous relationship will nort made again, still I din nort learn moi lesson.. I made those mistakes again! Those hurtful sentences tad eu used iin ur blog will foreva etched in moi heart.. How eu knoe how hurtful was tad? Haiish.. I was da onlie one tu be blamed!!! I'm sorries tu hurt eu again n again.. I knoe a word 'sorries' wun help much, it's jus too late ferh miie tu apologise lerhs.. I've cum up wiib two conclusion.. I've no ani other choices lerhs.. Haiish!
1.) I continue tu stay. - I still lurfe eu alot, I reallie dunchh bear tu leave eu liddat.
- Haiish.. I may b too selfish lerhs.. I jus tot of moiself lovin eu, but eu r sufferin.
- Eu may continue tu suffer.
- I shall gib moiself one more chance tu change ferh tad better. But most impt
thini, ken I do it marhs? Wad if I failed? Haiish..
2.) I leaves. - Eu will b able tu find a better gerl wib better character, attitude n temper.
- Eu will suffer lesser as compared tu now.
Dere's reallie lots of questions in moi mind.. I'm reallie confussed.. Ken we sort out everithini together..? Haiish.. I jus lurfe eu lots~! Sobs.!
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_[[` I lost myself in those hurtful words, my heart is filled wid pains n tears, Still, I try turning back to embrace my fear. `]]_
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Haiish.. Jus received hiis ex msg.. Totally shocked! I knoe tad hiis ex still care ferh hiim. Mayb still lurfe hiim bahs.. After readin her msg, those guiltiness cum back again.. The past hab resurfaced again lerhs.. Haiish.. I'm reallie confussed now.. Dere's lotsa thini he wun understand derhs.. I will nort make hiim understand anithini as I din wan tu cos ani unhappiness between da three of us.. Now, dere ish onlie one thini on moi mind lerhs.. I told moiself again n again.. Once hiis ex send mie another msg regardin relationship issue, showin tad she herself still care n lurfe hiim, I'll jus step out.. I wun turned back animore..! Neva eva! I knoe it's a hurtful decision, but I've reallie hab no other beta choice lerhs.. It's rather den one party suffers den both parties suffer togather.. Haiish..
Why cun he automatically col mie up? Why mus I alwae da one whu do it? I'm tired of it lerhs! Everitime, I'll tried tu control moiself frm nort colin hiim, but I failed tu do so.. I'm jus worried abt hiim.. Haiish.. I shall nort col hiim up unless he does it.. Haiish.. I reallie hab tu b firm wib moi decision dis time round lerhs..
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The slash will continue from here lerhs. We shall c bahs.
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.. Finally, dere ish sum pirvate time ferh da two of us lerhs..~ But too bad, nth hab happened so far.. Mayb it's takes time bahs.. Hehes.. Well, intended tu go East Coast park walk walk derhs.. But miss da stop siaL.. Den too bad, ended up at Century Square..~ Hahas.. Well, I finds him rather more quiet hangin wib mie den hangin wib moi fwens.. Wad happened..? Izzit he din hab da chance tu flirt or wadeva..?! Haiis.. I find it rather strange lerhs.. Mayb I've tiink too much liiaos lerhs bahs..~ Lols!
.. Haiis.. Nowadaes, I reallie dunch feel ani lurfe, concern or care frm hiim lerhs.. I reallie dunch knoe why.. Nowadaes, he dunch put mie in his heart, I wasn't tad impt tu him animore lerhs.. He treats mie reallie cold.. Haiis.. Will dis continue foreva marhs..? Haiis.. Dear, ken eu change da wae eu treat mie anort..? Haiis..
Haiis.. Jus now was da veh veh first time tad he showed mie his attitude.. Haiis.. He showed mie his attitude both on da fone n MSN.. Haiis.. Do euu knoe how hurt m i..? I almost broke down.. Tears starts tu roll down moi cheek.. I reallie din expect tad thini will turn out dis wae.. Haiis.. Sorries.. I did show eu attitude.. Sorries.. Haiis~
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Haiish.. I was all alone todae.. All alone..! He wen out wib his parents ferh da whole dae.. I seem tu b da one kept taggin onto him todae.. He din col mie or msg mie.. Am I a irritant tu him..? Haiish.. Mayb I shall stop all these lerhs bahs.. Haiish.. Thks god tad nth serious happen tu him last nite.. Haiish.. I'm jus waitin ferh his return now..~
And I was tinkin ferhs tad whole dae.. After twenty-one daes frm now, he will b awae ferh his NCC trip ferh eleven daes lerhs.. Wad ish goiin tu happen tu mie..? I gotto miss him lots! He ish goin dere all alone wib all strangers.. Wad ish goiin tu happen if he fainted or sth happen..? Haiish! I'm reallie worried.. But wad ken I do? Lots n lots of questions came across moi mind todae! I jus din knoe wad n how tu do now.. I'm reallie scared tu lose him.. I jus wish tad his trip will b cancelled.. But it's jus impossible derhs.. Haiish! Lurfe ya..
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Haiish! Four tu five hours ago, I was still wib moi dear.. But wad happened now?! He hab difficulties breathing.. And he's now landed in a hospital.. Haiish! Actually, he wasn't feelin well dis mornin.. He din let mie knoe earlier.. If he were tu let mie knoe earlier, perpharps, he wun b in dis terrible state lerhs.. Wad ken I do now? It's reallie all too late..! I totally blank out wen his parents told mie! I was in a blank! Do eu knoe how worried m I? Do eu knoe how upset m I? Do eu knoe tad I broke down after knowin e bad news frm ur parents? Moi tears kept rollin down moi cheek.. Haiis.. I reallie jus hope eu will recover soon, dear.. Haiis.. I reallie hab e feeling tad eu r leavin mie lerhs.. Haiis..~
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Hahas.. Wen back skool wib moi dear n fwens tu collect skool year book.. In fact, it was reallie fun.. I was late ferh meetin MJ sias.. She waited almost haf an hour sias.. Sorries lehs.. We tot tad I was late n he was b waitin ferh us ferh sum time lerhs.. He was even later den us sias.. We still hab tu wait ferh him.. Lols.. Poor, poor Mel hab tu wait ferh us ferh so long sias.. Sorries lehs.. All moi fualt lehs.. Sorries.. Lols.. Well, saw moi ex in skool, shld b preparin ferh his O lvl bahs.. I intended tu avoid him.. But I choose nort tu.. Why? Ish jus sho simply.. I jus wanna let him knoe tad, I dunch hab e nid tu b afraid of him even though mie n him hab oreadi broke up.. And I wanna let him knoe tad I've oreadi find moi happiness n I still ken live happily wib out his presence.. I reallie dunch knoe how moi dear feels wen I saw him.. I reallie dunch knoe.. Ken eu tel mie..? Haiis.. Wen NP, n mit Asri.. Haiis~ Mood totally wen down..~
Dear, I reallie dunch lyk him liiaos lerhs.. Mie n him ish totally over lerhs.. I jus hope if eu c moi reaction wen I saw moi ex, eu wun anihow tink or wadeva.. I lurfe eu dear! Lols. Takkaire.. Eu mus take care of urself wors.. Dunch faint..! Takkaire..
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Well, todae ish jus Saturdae, twelveth november.. Lols.. Hmm.. Wen out wib moi parents.. He wen out wib his parents too.. Both of us jus din reallie contact much.. I dunch reallie mind tad much as I ken understand his situation.. In time tu cum, I will landed in his situation too.. It's so, so sweet n nice of him tu send mie a msg secretly wib out lettin parents knoe wors.. Hehes.. Initially, he hab his cell group derhs, but after tad dunch knoe why suddenly he neva go lehs.. Tot tad he will return mie earlier, in fact, he din wors.. He's still in da city wib his parents.. Lols.. Aniwae, nvm.. Jus hab tu bear wib it n da dae will b over lerhs..
Dear arhs.. Last nite hors, veh sorries lehs.. I was somehow angry n jealous cos of tad thini.. Sorries lehs.. Next time dunch jus wen offline liddat lerhs hors.. No matter wad, veh sorries ya..~ Smile.. If hors, lter eu cum online den neva c mie, means I slp lerhs.. Or I wen offline lerhs.. Den if eu wan den eu col moi house, but provided it's before eleven.. Lols.. I Lurfe eu lots! Miss eu lots too! Haiis.. Hab tu bear wib it..~ Lols.. Takkaire!
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Well, wen swimmin at Yishun Swimmin Complex wib Mel.. Quite fun bahs.. But injured moiself.. Wound veh pain oso.. Haiis~ Bleedin sias..
In fact, todae was reallie a peaceful dae fer us wors.. Nort much unagreements.. Jus hope tad frm now on, everidae will b liddat.. I lurfe eu, dear piglet! Well.. It's all jus craps.. Nth tu blog liiaos lerhs..
In fact, todae was reallie a peaceful dae fer us wors.. Nort much unagreements.. Jus hope tad frm now on, everidae will b liddat.. I lurfe eu, dear piglet! Well.. It's all jus craps.. Nth tu blog liiaos lerhs..
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Haiis~ I reallie dunch understand mie moiself. I reallie dunch understand eu. I reallie dunch understand ur past. Haiis~ Why eu ken hab so much confidence n faith in ur ex, and eu dunch seem tu hab ani in our relationship.. Why? Why eu kept wantin tu step out dis relationship? Why? Obviously, eu lurfe ur ex more. Izzit bein fair tu mie? Do eu knoe how hurt m I wen I gets tu knoe e truth n i'm landed in dis kinda situation? Haiis~ Since eu lurfe ur ex more, might as well go back tu her, hab a patch back? Why mus I gets tu knoe him at tad point of time? Am I a third party? Haiis.. Ken anione tel mie all these..? If eu reallie wanna step out n hab a patch back wib her, I shall jus let eu go lerhs.. Jus a happz endin if eu leavin bahs~ Takkaire..
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It's another dae which I'm still livin in dis bloody world.. I'm reallie sick n tired of livin lerhs.. Haiis.. Wen Orchard wib MJ n Mel.. Initially, he ish cumin along derhs.. But out of e sudden, received his col sayin tad he cun go liiaos lerhs.. Haiis.. Disappointed sias.. I was jus lyk a idiot followin e two of em thru out.. I shldn't hab gone out wib em bahs.. Another unhappy thini happen again.. MJ was tinkin after goin Orchard den go Causewae awhile derhs.. But I dunch feel lyk goin, n Mel said if I'm nort goin den she's nort goin too.. Somehow, MJ was unhappy.. Sayin tad I wan go home so early cos wanna col him.. Haiis..
Why are these thini happenin again..? How I wish dere's peace.. Both fwenship n relationship oso got problems liiaos.. How m I goin tu handle! Haiis.. He wasn't dere fer mie.. Haiis.. Both online oso neva tok.. Haiis..~
How I wish I ken vanish immediately.. How I wish I hab no more problems.. How I wish I ken leave dis bloodly world.. Haiis.. Jus wait fer time tu cum bahs..
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Well, it's another boring dae again.. Wakes up at eight plus den rush tu work wib moi cousins.. Ended oso quite early dis time round.. Col him up n intended tu go hab lunch wib him, den suddenly received mum's col.. A demand frm her tad mus return home immediately.. Haiis.. Dere's goes moi plan! Hab no choice, den wen home straight.. Reach home arnd 12.. Doin nth fer da whole afternoon.. Din received ani fone col frm him.. Jus nth! Wad e fcuk sias.. But kennot b blamed.. He hab no prepared dinner fer family.. So guai sias.. Hab a nap jus now..~ Haiis.. I'm wondering n wondering, wad ish he doing beside preparing dinner? He seem tu b so bz tad he cun even reply moi msg.. Haiis.. I've been left alone again.. I've been left alone dae after dae.. Haiis~ Ish dis goin tu continue foreva? Haiis.. Moi dae jus ended liddat.. I'm jus waiting n waiting fer his col..~ In fact, he reallie din col mie at all.. Haiis~ Jus b it bahs.. We will hab dis kinda dae foreva.. Mayb I'm those kinda person whu nid their lurfe one tu b by their side everitime.. I shld b more mature lerhs.. He wun b free 24 hours a dae n accompany mie derhs.. Haiis~ Lurfe eu..
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Yeahs! It's reallie great! Finally, I've found a job liaos lerhs.. Well, workin at KFC at Plaze Singapura.. Quite far sias.. Den somemore, workin frm five tu eleven, at nite wors.. So tired! Aniwae, oso haben start yet.. Startin on twenty-second of November.. It's a Tuesdae..~ Lols.. Jus hope tad everithini will turn out well n smooth..~
Haiis.. Got a job, but another thini cum tu moi mind straight after I agreed wib e job.. It's all abt mie n him.. I will b spendin lesser n lesser time wib him once moi work starts.. I'm reallie afraid tad our relationship will b affected, and our lurfe n feelin will start tu fade off.. I dunch wan it tu happen.. I knoe tad I will neglect him alot cos of moi workin hours.. Wad if it reallie happen dis wae..? How..? Haiis.. I'm sorries.. If eu reallie mind, ken eu let mie knoe..? I reallie wanna knoe e truth frm eu.. Haiis.. No matter, jus rmb tad, eu will alwae b on moi mind foreva, no matter wad happen n wen.. And another thini ish tad eu r leavin Singapore fer e NCC thini lerhs.. Eu r leavin fer ELEVEN daes!!! It's reallie cumin up veh veh soon lerhs.. Wad shld I do..? Dere's reallie no wae we ken contact or mit up.. Haiis..
Well, let's dunch tink so far yet bahs.. I'm still tinkin of e workin thini.. I'm reallie confused!
Dear, help mie arhs..! We r goin tu b apart frm each other veh soon derhs.. First ish cos of moi workin.. Den second ish cos of ur NCC thini.. Haiis..
I lurfe eu!
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Yeahs~! His prediction was totally rong! We aren't over! We did manage tu save back everithini last nite.. He did norts leave mie lerhs.. Those kinda feelin inside moi heart was undescribe.. It was a miracle.. It seem tu b in moi dream.. Dear, thks fer gibin each other another chance.. Thks fer norts leavin mie.. I lurfe eu loads! I reallie hope tad wad happen last nite will b e first n last time lerhs.. I dunch wan it tu happen animore lerhs.. Neva eva! Well, we wen out wib our dearest daughter todae.. Wen tu Novena dere.. Quite fun bahs.. Laughin awae thru out e whole thini siaL.. Lols.. Finallie, dere a smile on his face lerhs.. Lols! Did he flirt todae..? I reallie dunch knoe if he was counted as flirtin bahs..~ Nvm bahs.. Mayb I'm reallie tu sensitive lerhs..~ Hmm.. Gotto go find work wib moi daughter tomolo lerhs.. Lols! Nth much tu blog lerhs.. I lurfe eu.. Dunch eva leave mie animore lerhs.. Promised? The feelin was totally hurt! Takkaire..
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Hais..~ It was reallie da time! The time ish up lerhs! Everithini jus ended liddat.. I reallie din wan it tu end up dis wae derhs.. Tears starts tu roll down moi cheeks wen i sae those thini tu eu.. I bet tad dere's reallie no other beta choice den leavin eu.. Cos I knoe tad eu r sufferin thru out everithini.. I'm sorries.. Do eu knoe tad it's hurts tu sae 'end everithini'? Moi heart ish bleedin profusely..~ Hais.. I reallie regret wad did I did.. Ken everithini backtrack..? Full of regrets! Ish dere ani other wae tad we ken b back togather..? Ish dere..? Hais.. If eu din wan tu, den nvm derhs.. It's okies.. I'll hab tu bear e pain moiself.. Hais~! Sobbies..~
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Dis mornin, wen Woodland Library wib WanFu.. After tad, made moi trip tu moi grandparents' house.. Long journey sias! Took mie one hour plus.. Lols.. As fer him, he wen out early in da mornin wib his family.. Dunch knoe go where oso.. Haiis.. Din even msg mie.. It was mie tu msg him.. Haiis.. I bet tad he hab totally forgotten mie lerhs.. Next time, I tink I shldn't msg or col him first lerhs.. Since he forgotten abt mie, den b it lorhs.. Wad ken I do..? Haiis.. Well, da dae of Sundae jus ended liddat.. Wib out ani fun n laughters but full of disappointments! Haiis!
I hate weekends! Dere's norts much time spared fer mie n him.. We neglected each other alots.. Haiis..~
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Haiis~ Why mus I kept hurtin him again n again..? Why..? Haiis..~ Dear, I'm reallie sorries.. I reallie tot tad it's jus a joke, but it reallie turns out tu b e other wae rnd.. And, I din wan tu hang ur fone de.. I tot tad eu will col mie back..~ Haiis..~ I'm reallie, reallie sorries, fer breakin ur heart again n again.. I knoe it's norts one time lerhs.. Haiis.. I reallie hab e guilt.. I hope tad eu wun b angry lerhs.. I promised tad I wun play dis kinda joke lerhs.. Never lerhs.. I'm reallie afraid tad eu will leave mie cos of all these thini.. Sorries.. I lurfe eu loads.. Dunch be angry lerhs.. Haiis..
Dear, I'm reallie sorries.. I lurfe eu..! Reallie.. Neva leave mie.. Okies.. Haiis..
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Haiis.. Why mus he alwaes cum up wib e conclusion of of leavin mie again n again..? As wad he written on his blog, I'm tad impt tu him, why mus he leaves mie..? He's oso veh impt tu mie.. Haiis.. Dunch eva leave mie ken mahs..? Haiis.. I reallie dunch wish tu hear all these thini again frm eu.. I dunch wan! Never eva! Haiis.. I reallie dunch knoe wad tu do next.. I'm reallie, reallie dunch knoe wad ish on ur mind, n wad euu r goin tu do next lerhs.. Dunch do thini tad will hurts both parties..
Haiis.. Dear, sorries fer wad happen jus now.. I din mean it derhs.. Haiis.. I knoe wad ish done ish done lerhs, but I'm reallie sorries.. Dunch b sad n dunch b angry wib urself lerhs.. It's e past lerhs.. Haiis.. I've reallie nth tu sae lerhs.. I jus hope euu wun leave mie.. Haiis.. Sobbies.. I lurfe euu dear..
SHEneedsHIM
Well, todae wakes up early in da morning as per normal.. I woke up abit late, late by one hour.. Hahas! Ytd, hab been hanging out fer da whole dae lerhs, therefore niid more resting time ya.. Hahas! Hmm.. Wen tu view his blog.. Jus found out tad we r somehow related wors.. Seriously, I reallie dunch knoe wen r we 'related'.. Ken eu let mie knoe..? Lols.. Dis thini jus happened liddat.. It's somehow a biig surprised tu mie ya.. Well, it's jus a fresh n new relationship which I'm steppin into lerhs.. Hmm.. I wil treasure dis relationship ya..
" Boii.. I'm reallie, reallie veh curious abt sth.. May I knoe e specified date tad we r 'related', in a sense of bein together..? I wan tu knoe lehs.. Tag mie n tel mie in e comment ya.. Lols.. Well, I will reallie treasured dis relationship de.. Dunch worries..~ *i lurfe eu n onlie eu* Takkaire, dear! "
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Hmm.. A very, very tiring dae.. Woke up early in da morning, now den free.. Wen out tu 'work' until eleven plus, after tad wen out wib him n fwens.. Hanging arnd in Causeway Point doin nth, lyk 4 idiots! Haiis~ I somehow showed him attitude n temper.. Sorries.. Ish lyk, fer mie, I feels tad he's flirting wib moi fwens.. He may find mie over-sensitive, but tad's moi character.. And perharps tad's one of e reason why mie n moi ex hab a break up.. I reallie dunch knoe ken he accept moi 'special' character anorts.. Haiis..~ I reallie dislyk e boi I lurfe alots tu go arnd flirting.. Mayb I've been flirting too.. But ish jus tad we ourself dunch knoe wad r we actually doing..~ Well, I shall norts bring up da matter lerhs.. We jus let e thini past.. Okies..? I lurfe eu! Takkaire..
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" Just a little truth, there was no reception on bukit timah hill, and euu noe mel's fone, the battery is not stable.. so, when i wanna contact euu, the battery died.. hiiaz... i suppose, euu wont believe this, so, euu were saying abt restarting? or "re-starting"? "Reboot" takes time, i'm sure it will take some time too, but, euu sure? ~ tts the onli question i wanna ask.. the rest is all statements... if **leaving or restarting** is the only option here, then lets do it.. i love euu, really... "
After readin it, I ken onlie tel eu tad, I din wan tu **leave or restart**, I jus wan us tu forget those unhappy thini tad hab happend so far.. I neither wan tu leave or lose eu.. Well, ish moi fault norts tu trust eu.. *Sorries* I reallie hope eu will gib mie sum time cos of moi past.. In e past, I reallie cun trust moi ex, cos he hab reallie make mie lost trust in him.. I'm sorries fer ytd.. We somehow din tok ytd.. Last time.. Break record liaos lerhs~! Lols.. Well, forget abt e past.. If eu happen tu c tis, den I'll here tu remind eu.. Col mie after tad.. Dunch worries as in eu will disturb mie.. Moi 'work' veh free de.. Ken col mie anithini de..~ Hehehes.. Hope tu receive ur col asps~ I lurfe eu ya..~!
SHEneedsHIM
Haiis~ He wen fer a hike at Bukit Timah hill wib his church fwens.. He wen tu Snow City after tad.. As fer mie, I wen tu moi baby cousin's birthdae party.. We somehow neglected each other fer a whole dae.. We did msg awhile n tad's e end of our contact lerhs.. Haiis~ I was wonderin n wonderin fer e whole noon.. Izzit e end of everithini..? He put his personal events in e first place.. He din bother tu msg mie or col mie.. Haiis~ I feels tad our lurfe has reallie faded dae after dae.. Our lurfe has reallie faded.. Why mus tis happen..? Eu might b tinkin tad, if he did bother tu msg or col mie, why cun I take e initiative tu do it.. Haiis~ Even till now, he din col mie or msg mie~ I'm reallie reallie hurt deeply.. I reallie dunch knoe why..
I'm truely sorries fer wad I said tu eu in e msg.. Forgib mie.. Okies? Haiis~
" Boii, I reallie din wan tu end everithini.. I wan tu continue.. I wan tu b wib eu.. Shall we start everithini again..? We forget abt those unhappy thini ken mahs..? I reallie hope we ken make it ya.. ~ Takkaire.. I Lurfe Eu~! "
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