Last nites, out of da sudden, he col miie up at veh late.. Obviously, I was veh suprised.. I reallie din knoe why he was suddenli col miie n tok.. *weird* I din reject hiis col, we tok on fer abt haf an hour.. It ken b counted as peaceful tok bahs.. At first, I started tokin abt moii life in skool n all moii skool works stuffs.. It seem tuu b bored tuu hiim.. Dunch knoe tok till wad thini, he mentioned abt hiis NPCC stuffs n starts tellin miie abt wad changin tuu a beta person.. He said tad he will change tu a beta person wen dere's no stress n presure added tu hiim.. Lols.. I dunch knoe izzit true anots lehs.. But jus believe lorhs..
Hais.. I reallie dunch knoe why I sudden told hiim tad I've no feelin fer anione includin hiim.. Moii mind jus go 'hei-wire'! I dunch knoe how he felt, n somemore, I dunch even knoe if he still hab feelin ferr miie.. I jus dunch knoe ani truth!
After few minutes, I col hiim back n explain tuu hiim wad did I said jus now.. He din wan tu hear n hang up moii fone.. I jus hope wen I explain in moii blog, he will b able tuu understand..
Here it's goes.. .. [To hiim onlie]
After we broke up n din contact, I felt tad euu hab a much happier life in skool n at home too.. Euu seem tuu hab no more stress addin frm miie tu euu.. Euu hang out n study wiid ur usual fwens.. Well, wad ken i sae abt tad ish gud.. Both of us hab freedom too.. It completely changed frm e past.. We do wad we wan tuu do.. I found tad moii life has been brightened up.. And I believe it goes same tu euu.. Sometimes, I tink tad it's reallie nots da time fer both of us tuu step into relationship yet.. It might b too early fer miie.. I dunch understand how euu feel, wad euu wan n more.. Euu oso dunch reallie knoe wad I wan n feel n more.. It's reallie hard tu get along liddat.. And it wun last long de.. I suggest euu go patch back wiid Sharen as ur age gap ish nots tad big, jus 1 year n I believe ur ken get along beta de.. If euu tink I will lie tuu euu abt i'll stay single thini, den I promised euu bahs.. It's reallie enjoyable tu stay single.. Take care n go jio back Sharen.. She's a beta person.. Gud luck!
Haiis.. Hurts..!
SHEneedsHIM
SHEneedsHIM
Haiis.. Long tym no cum blog liiaos lerhs.. So much subjects tuu study.. Gettin miie krazy liiaos lerhs..! Aniwae, reallie reallie lotsa thini happenin tuu miie n moii fwens bahs..
Let's jus starts wiid moii own thini bahs.. *He* jus told miie tad he found *hiis* gal.. Kinda hurt n surprise bahs.. But nvm, I reallie mus b strong wiid dis kinda thini.. *He* starts tuu avoid miie.. I reallie felt tad, I'm jus nth tu hiim.. Nots even a fwens.. I'm jus a irritant tu *hiim* foreva.. I reallie reallie don dare tuu tiink abt miie n *hiim* animore.. It's jus too scary..! Haiis.. Hurts.. Sobs.. I will jus let everithini take b natural bahs.. No point forcin de.. I jus hope *he* will nots show miie those attitude animore.. Fer wad I had done, Sorries.. I din mean tu lie tu euu de.. I REALLIE REALLIE MUS CHANGE! It's a mus! I jus wish tuu get *hiim* back.. Haiis..
Moii group of fwens plus miie oso had sum musunderstandings wiid *******.. We all oso don reallie knoe wad reallie happen larhs.. It's jus too sudden..! Lotsa thini happenin..
I jus wanna tel *hiim* tad, I reallie reallie lurfe *hiim*.. I din wan *hiim* tuu lay hiis hand off miie.. I nid *hiim*.. Haiis.. Once again, I lurfe euu!
SHEneedsHIM
Haiis.. Cos of beiin in a relationship wiid HIM, I’ve been sufferin a lot! I was beiin hurt deeply.. Neva was I nots hurt by HIM.. HE disappoint miie again n again.. I was too toopid tad I din gave up on HIM.. Tis was da reallie reallie big regret I eva had.. Tis ish wad HE wrote HIS own blog..:
[ Confusion
Haiz~ I'm now in a state of dilemma... Y muz I hab crush on her when I'm not suppose to... Haiz~ I hope everything can backtrack so tat tis won't happen... Din she feel tat I din contact wif her like last week? Is wad i do the right thing anot? Can I avoid her 4ever? I don tink so loh... We will sure hab the need to meet up at times but can i always find the excuse to avoid her? Haiz~ It’s all moi fault... I will juz pass her present thru somebody else... Wish her ever happy wid her guy.... Haiz~]
Haiz~ I'm now in a state of dilemma... Y muz I hab crush on her when I'm not suppose to... Haiz~ I hope everything can backtrack so tat tis won't happen... Din she feel tat I din contact wif her like last week? Is wad i do the right thing anot? Can I avoid her 4ever? I don tink so loh... We will sure hab the need to meet up at times but can i always find the excuse to avoid her? Haiz~ It’s all moi fault... I will juz pass her present thru somebody else... Wish her ever happy wid her guy.... Haiz~]
Wen I read it, I reallie totally shocked.. HE hab a crush on another gal, HE din let miie knoe.. I was in da dark.. Why mus HE did so much thini tuu miie recently lyk physical contact and be irresponsible? HE used on miie tuu release stress n go away, ish tad fair tuu mie? Now we quarrel till tis state, HE din apologise tuu mie face tuu face.. Did HE eva put himself in moii shoe, how would I felt.. Now, it was reallie tuu late lerhs.. If HE reallie hab da determination tu gib up on mie, why mus HE care wadeva I do n where I do or even whu m I wiid? Haiis.. Nobody reallie understand how I feels.. Well, we quarrel till liddat, both parties were in da fault, I do agree wiid tad..
Luckily, PingYing was by moii side jus now.. Haiis.. Moii heart reallie hurt.. It seem tuu b a sharp knife bein stabbed in deeply..! Haiis..
Since euu stated so clearly tad euu found ur gal den too bad lerhs.. It’s jus da end fer us lerhs.. Jus wish euu happz wiid ur gal..~ Gud luck ferr ur O level too~
SHEneedsHIM
*siigh* Why mus aii alwae be da one sufferiin so much..? Why..? I reallie feels terrible! I tok tu [him] nicely, he don appreciate! Nvm.. I tok tuu [him] badly, [he] sae aii shows [hiim] attitude! Wad does [he] reallie wan..? I niid [hiim] in moii life, does [he] niid miie? It's reallie complicated.. After jus now tad col, ish it reallie da end of everithini..? I tiink so bahs.. I ken feel tad dere's reallie no hope lerhs.. Haiis.. Hurts!
Blood driipiin!!!
SHEneedsHIM
Haiis.. I reallie dunch knoe wad tuu sae liiaos lerhs.. I've tried moii best tuu change tuu wad [he] wan lerhs, but I jus dunch knoe wad had happened tuu [hiim].. Studies stress? I jus hope so tad it's studies stress tad cos [hiim] tuu behave diis wae bahs.. Da wae [he] believe reallie hurts miie deeply! Haiis.. Startin of da col, [he] seems tuu b fine de, out da sudden, [hiis] mood totally changed! And [he] even said tad ish cos of miie.. I reallie dunch knoe wad did I sae rongly or did rongly! [He] suddenly tel miie tad [he] lyk a teacher in skool.. I was somehow shocked bahs.. Wad ken I do? I ken do nth, but jus tuu accept da fact bahs.. Da quarrel starts again lerhs.. After tokin much on da wae wiid [hiim], I somehow found out sth.. [He] dunch lurfe miie at all! Does [he] knoe how hurt moii heart was..?! I reallie dunch dare tuu tiink anithini more abt us, except bein fwens bahs.. Haiis.. How I hope tad [he] will b able tuu speak out [hiis] mind, I reallie wish tuu knoe wad's [he]'s tiinkin.. Haiis.. *Hurts* Moii confidence dropped all da wae down tu zero lerhs.. Haiis.. Haiis..
SHEneedsHIM
*Innocent* Dis mornin, [he] wen skool tuu studi wiid [hiis] fellow fwens.. We diin reallie contact iin da mornin, iish jus after 12 plus. me and moii fwens took 804 go skool ferr band practice den saw [hiim] playin soccer.. it was quite a gud start of da dae ferr me.. Everthini started smoothly.. Except, durin da niites tiime, quarrels starts.. Out of da sudden. [he] sad tad was msgiin [hiis] fwens whom wen studyiin wiid [hiim].. [He] kept sayin tad he saw da whueva person msgin me.. [He] said [he] saw da number.. i tink he reallie c da rong number.. diin even msg an other guys except [hiim] ferr da whole dae.. kept sayin dunch hab such thini tuu [him], [he] dunch believe me.. And cos of all these minor problems we hab, quarrels started.. [He] started tuu raise [hiis] voice at me.. i cun stand [him] and did da same thini tuu [him], risied moii voice at him too.. i din mean it de loes.. *Sorriies* Will [he] believe me..?
'i reallie neva msg an other guys! Reallie! '
Da dae jus ended wid a niite quarrel.. How reallie wish tad everthini ken restarts again.. i'm reallie sorriies tad din treasure [him] n da past.. i'm reallie full of regrets! i reallie reallie miss [him] alot..! Haiis..
*_- I Lurfe Onlie Euu -_*
*_- I'm sorriies fer wad I hab done -_*
SHEneedsHIM
*siigh*
It was indeed a great start of da dae ferr miie.. [He] saes tad if I'm able tuu change moii current self and mit [hiis] expectations, dere's a slight hope ferr us tuu be back togather again.. As in [he] wan tuu c dere's a change in moii attitudes towards everithini.. I knew tad [hiis] expectation will b a high one.. I diin reallie gib up.. I tot moii self tad no matter, I mus try moii best tuu change ferr da beta.. *wiink* I was quite suprised wen I heard dis piece of news..
But.. .. Lter in da evenin, I col [hiim] again.. [He] seem tuu b unhappy wiid miie.. I reallie don knoe why.. I diin bother tuu ask [hiim].. Instead, I somehow make [hiim] fraustrated n seem tuu b a irritant tuu [hiim].. *siigh* [He] was soo fruastrated tad [he] mentioned abt breakin [hiis] promised.. Da tone [he] used tuu tok tuu miie make miie feels tad [he] diin wan back diis relationship animore and da tone did affects miie as in a wae tad it pull down moii confidence in changin ferr a beta miie.. I was hurt.. *siigh* [He] did mention tad [he] will b workin after [hiis] O level.. It was a shockin news tuu miie.. Din reallie expect tad.. Sumthini came tuu moii mind.. Shld I gib up and let hiim find [hiis] happiness durin e period of tym wen [he]'s workin..? [He] doesn't seem tuu b happy wen wiid miie.. Shall I reallie let go..? Haiis..
*CoNfUsEd*
SHEneedsHIM
Wahs! Finalli, miie created a blog liaos lerhs.. Waited n waited fer sumone tuu teach miie.. Thks tuu Audrey worrs.. Wid out her help, I tink I reallie cun create dis worrs.. Lols.. Aniwae, I'm new tuu dis bloggin thini.. Hehes.. Rmb tuu help miie tag worrs.. Endin here lerhs.. Take care everione ya.. Tata!
SHEneedsHIM
It was arnd 0930pm, wen I col [hiis] hp.. Initially, [he] answered da fone wiid a cheerful tone.. I reallie tot tad [hiis] attitudes towards miie changed back tuu e past [hiim].. It was another disappointment ferr miie again.. [He] din changed.. [He] becum so cheerful ish cos [he] was tokiin on da fone wiid [hiis] dearest cousin.. [He] even told miie tad [hiis] cousin was [hiis] ‘part-time’ stead.. I reallie cun take it! [He] even told miie tad [hiis] feeliin ferr miie will neva eva be gain back aniimore.. Till then, I reallie, reallie had tuu believe moii self tad, [he] reallie has feeliin ferr [hiis] ex. Sharen.. Wad I ken sae iish tad, da wae he tok tuu miie iish reallie veh different from da past.. I tok tuu [hiis] cousin, even [hiis] cousin was helpiin [hiim] tuu speak up lorhs.. *siigh* Wad shld I do now..? *siigh*
*Sobbies* *Siigh*
*Sobbies* *Siigh*
SHEneedsHIM
*siigh* I was reallie, reallie, reallie hurt by [him] deeply! Jus now, at arnd four plus, I col [hiim] tuu ask [hiim] if [he] has reached home anots, [hiis] mum answer tad fone n saiid tad [he] was sleepin.. I was expectin [hiim] tuu return miie a col wen [he] woke up.. To moii surprise, [he] col miie few minutes later wen I hunged off da fone.. I tot tad it will b a peaceful tok.. It jus wasn't.. [He] tok tuu miie iin a veh serious tone, [he] jus col miie back tuu ask miie find [hiim] fer wad.. I reallie hurt! I tot tad after a niites of relaxation, da tone of tokin tuu miie will changed, but it becum worst! Although, I promised [hiim] tad I wun pestered [hiim] animore, I broke moii promise! I tried tuu accept da fact tad [he] has no more feelin fer miie, but everiitiime, I failed tuu do so.. I jus cun accpet! [He] diin col miie automaticalli ferr two daes liaos lerhs.. I ken understand tad [he]'s under lotsa studies stress as [he]'s takin [hiis] O level at da end of da year.. *siigh*
*siigh* I'm reallie, reallie afraid tad one thini will happen again.. I'm afraid tad [he] will return tuu [hiis] ex.. I don wan it tuu happen! Dere's alwae these questions iin moii mind.. 'Did [he] lied tuu miie? Did he patch back wiid [hiis] ex?' *siigh* Wad shld I do now? I'm reallie veh confused, I don knoe wad tuu do next! I broke down at niites.. I cun concentrate on moii studies.. I kept tiinkiin of da past.. *siigh* Ken aniione help miie? Will [he] knoe wad's on moii mind? Will [he] understand how I feel?
*siigh* I jus hope after [hiis] O level, [he] will cum back by moii side again.. I jus hope [he] will col miie.. *siigh* Will all these thini happen?! I reallie lost confidence iin everithini I do.. I reallie nid [hiim].. I reallie hope [he] will read moii blog.. I knoe tad [he] wun response tuu anii of moiii words lerhs.. *siigh* I'm reallie reallie hurt!!! !!!
*_- Tears rollin down moii cheeks. . . -_*
*_- I lurfe [hiim] foreva.. ! -_*
*siigh*
SHEneedsHIM
Todae, jus received moii result slip.. To moii surprised, I failed moii English! It was moii first time tuu fail moii English! At tad point of time, dere was nobodi by moii side tuu comfort miie.. I tot of [him], but he wasn't dere.. I still rmb tad, [he] was by moii side last year.. How I hope tad [he] was dere tuu calm miie down! *siigh* Sweet memories came across moii miind.. I was reallie hurt..! I lose [him] foreva lerhs.. *siigh*
*_- I lurfe [hiim] -_*
SHEneedsHIM
